Wednesday, January 24, 2007
You Sacrifice The Things You Love
The one thing I remember about the Jimi Hendrix biography I read while I was a lifeguard during the times in the concession area or office is that he practiced playing guitar constantly, no matter where he was. He'd even bring it to the movies with him and play it without sound. All the wild tales of sex and drugs fell away in light of this fact -- as a person who wanted to be a writer, I saw that I would have to change my ways! I'd been mighty proud of myself that I'd completed my very first collection of poems, a ghastly set that I'd entitled Irrational Fears. Each section had poems about a different phobia. What fun! What joy! Now if I saw it, I'd probably howl about how bad it was. And I'd only spent a few minutes during lifeguarding breaks on it. I was not taking my guitar to the movies, no sir. I hadn't made any sacrifices except telling a few of the male lifeguards to buzz off, I am working, can't you see! It wasn't much of a struggle.
By the time I'd gotten to the Hendrix biography, I'd just finished reading Lolita which seemed fitting -- both books were about a singular obsession. I've always liked the word obsession better than addiction although they share a lot -- the outside world falls away and all thoughts of the person or thing become paramount. You lose a lot of time and energy to both. Like your mind and your entire life. Nobody told me it would be quite like this! But wait -- both the Bible and Jimi Hendrix point to it -- you must lose your life to find it, you must take your guitar everywhere and play it all the time. There's not as much time for sex and drugs as you'd like! Like anyone trapped in a calling, everything else falls aways like so many snowflakes. You notice them as you walk to your destination, but they don't stop you even as they pile up. You present yourself as a living sacrifice until life chokes every last breath out of you.
Michelle's Spell of the Day
"The time I burned my guitar it was like a sacrifice. You sacrifice the things you love. I love my guitar." Jimi Hendrix
Drinking music suggestion: Bold As Love Jimi Hendrix
Benedictions and Maledictions
Happy Wednesday to everyone!