Once at a faculty development day, I heard a speaker say that the reason transitions are hard is because you must let go of all your props. His example was Linus from Peanuts -- the worst part is when the blanket is being washed and dried and you must let go, take it on faith that all will be well. I took this to heart, being a person who gets very nervous when jarred from a routine. I didn't get my first stomach ulcer at five because I was well-adjusted. I had the imagination of disaster and the hubris to imagine that enough internal suffering could somehow ward it off. Boy, that worked out. My entire life is a testament to the efficacy of such a belief.
There are certain prayers I pray a lot -- my favorite perhaps is the confession that I don't have faith, but I have enough faith that I trust God will give me the faith I need. Nutty, huh? Again, I didn't become a Catholic because I see God in a simple straight-forward way. I once read that God sees you as you see God. My mother used to laugh and say, I don't have any idea how you became both so traditional and so revolutionary. But I suppose we all contain multitudes, hating to see the border recede, hanging onto what we know until mystery subsumes us and we are left in the middle of it.
Michelle's Spell of the Day
“Never assume the obvious is true.” William Safire
Cocktail Hour
Drinking snack suggestion: Still working on pictures -- I don't cook so it's taking some time.
Benedictions and Maledictions
Happy Monday!
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RIP William Safire. Witty, sincere, and incredibly industrious.--Neal Shine
Michelle,
'..until mystery subsumes us.' I love that line. It is hard to let go of things at times.
Nice pic, Darlin'. :)
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Personally once I quit trying to see God as human I began to see myself as less so. We are after all cross breed mutts being body, soul, and spirit. Become subsumed in the spirit portion of your heritage and the rest takes care of itself.
One can focus on the bun, the dog or the chili, they're all a part of the whole.
It is ironic that I can see God in so many details, and yet struggle to believe. One of the reasons I love to be in nature is because I see the forces behind it. My problem is that my rational side wants to deny that which is not visable. I keep waiting for some deus ex machina moment when God comes out and explains it to me (not that I am so special as to deserve such a visit).
I wish I could say that the current speakers at faculty development day were still dispensing wisdom, unfortunately our current main speaker makes jokes about his well known love of beer. I think I remember the session you mentioned.
I had the imagination of disaster and the hubris to imagine that enough internal suffering could somehow ward it off.
I can see why you became Catholic.
Freud called god the Superego.
Planck called god Wave-Particle Duality.
Darwin called god Universal Common Descent.
I call god every Friday night at 7:30, but he never picks up...
Michelle, I am slow to change also, but try to remain chill. Raised Catholic, I do pray--but mostly just for mercy and understanding. xo
"Man is My Mystery, and I am his mystery."
You are my mystery. I guess I have to keep it that way.
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